Daddy Speaks

Gavin is 3 weeks old today.

Wow time flies when you are having fun. I could never of imagined having these strong feelings instantly after his birth; and to think they will only and have only gotten stronger since. I remember watching his birth in amazement, thinking "what did I do to deserve such a perfect little person in my life". Our family has truly been blessed with our new little addition. He is the center of all of my thoughts and the focus in all of my prayers. I love my son with all of my heart and thank God for him every day.

My beautiful wife

Words cannot say how I feel about B. She is my backbone, my strength, my everything. She is a wonderful mother, a best friend, a soulmate, and I could go on and on. Watching her with Gavin is awesome. She just "gets it" if you know what I mean. She knows just how to hold him, how to speak to him, and how to correct me when I am not as successful.

I have known for many years that she would one day make a great mother to our child, however; never in my wildest dreams did I think she would suprise me to this extent. I love to watch her with amazement and awe as she cares for him in the gentlest manner and calms him when he is in need. I sometimes sit and watch as Gavin falls asleep on her chest and what a perfect site it is to see. My life is complete with her in it and I am forever greatful for my "B".

Daddy

First time in his crib.

Since we got home from the hospital we have tried to get Gavin to sleep in his pack -n- play but with no sucess. Sometimes he will sleep in it and then other times he has nothing to do with it. We have even tried a wedge, a bassinet, the couch and even the boppy. All these work somedays but not others. The best way for him to sleep is on our chest. As much as we love it I also hate that he sleeps with us. I have always said that my kids will not sleep with me but in the middle of the night comes and we are exhausted and the only way to get sleep is this way then thats how it will be. However he will sleep good but he is very vocal in his sleep, he grunts and makes all kinds of crazy noises, no we dont get the best sleep and on top of that he eats every 2hours, yes even at night. So needless to say we are exhausted.

Well we did not want to put him in his crib yet due to the risk of SIDS, but we have discussed this in detail and decided to but him in his crib with hopes that we all get some rest. This way we will not hear every moan and groan but still will hear if he cries and will take all necessary precautions to reduce the risk of SIDS. We have a video monitor that works very well so now lets pray that this works and we all get some much needed rest.

We also swaddled him because when he fights his sleep he knocks his pacifer out of his mouth with his hands, he gets very mad and his arms go every which way. This way his arms and swaddled and cant do this. We have tried it before but it did not work but we are always trying to reintroduce new things.

It does make me sad seeing him in his crib though, he just looks so little in such a big bed but so adorable at the same time. As I am writing this he has been asleep for 30 min and is now waking up, this is just how night time is.

Daddy has been initiated into FATHER hood.

At our first dr. appt Gavin had a BM in daddys hand, he peed on him while he was changing his diaper. We were getting Gavin ready for a bath and Kevin was holding him naked and he had an explosive BM on Kevins hand, shirt and the floor. We both laughed so hard it took us about 10 min to gather ourselves so that we could bathe him. Then last night as Kevin was burping Gavin he vomitted on Kevin. All of this has happened to Kevin and the only thing that happened to me was when I was feeding him he peed out of his diaper and it got on me and his blanket. I probably should not be talking about it because it will happen to me next.

I just think its hilarious that all this has happened to daddy and not mommy.
MOMMYS LITTLE BOY

Mothers Day

These are a few of the pictures that we took. I love them and cant wait to frame them.

My first Mothers Day, I have been looking forward to this day all year. For so many years now I have dreamed of being a mother and finally I am and I also get a day to be spoiled, I have been so excited. Since Gavin is only 1 week old we are not going anywhere so we hung out at home and Kevin cooked french toast for breakfast and bruschetta chicken for dinner while me and Gavin layed around in bed. He also gave me a beautiful card, one from him and one from Gavin with a framed picture of Gavin.

Later on that day we played like we were photographers and took Mommy and me pictures as well as some naked pictures of Gavin. I love this little guy and had a wonderful day.

1 week old

So our baby boy is 1 week old now, that makes me so sad. I know that he has to grow but I already dont want him to. I can see the changes in him already and as happy as it makes me it also makes me sad.



This past week has definatley been a rollercoaster of emotions. Since we have been home we have had some night time difficulties with Gavin, thinking that he has gas, or colic but the dr. said he is too young to have colic. So that has left us going crazy trying to figure out what to do to get some sleep at night. We had my mom stay the night and she was a blessing and took care of him for 2 hours at night while we slept and she said that she thinks he is still hungry which might be why is crying at night. So I fed him even though it was not time but that night was easier. But since then the nights have still been a little rocky but I know that we will get threw all of this with just a little bit of patience.

Kevin has been great, he is up with me every time Gavin wakes up. I feed, Kevin changes his diaper and burps him. We are such a great team, I am so lucky to have such an amazing husband.

My Amazing Family

Where do I begin, I am sitting here and just thinking about how my life has changed so much in a matter of 6 days. Tomorrow my son will be 1 week old and I am so sad by that, he is growing and I am not ready for that already. Kevin is absolutley amazing, he is sitting with Gavin right now and they both are sleeping, I am trying to give them some daddy and son time, but it is so hard because I want to hold him and kiss him so much. Kevin did yard work today and was outside for almost 4 hours, and he missed Gavin so much. He wanted to know everything that happened in those 4 hours. It is great to have such an amazing husband, father, best friend.

I am in no manner depressed, I am overjoyed and my emotions are are going crazy. I am like a basket case right now. I cry everyday just looking over Gavin and watching how great Kevin is and am so blessed to be where I am right now in my life.

It amazes me to think how some dont take care of the babies. As I watch over Gavin I cant imagine my life without him, not changing his stinky but adorable diapers, not seeing his cute butt and kissing his wrinkly toes, hearing his owl screaching cry at 3 am and only getting sleep in 2 hour incriments. However, this is the life that I dreamed of and I will work hard everyday to make sure that I am the best mother and the best wife. For I know this is my destiny and GOD has given me this path because it is where I am suppose to be.

LIFE IS GREAT - GOD IS AMAZING - GAVIN IS SPECTACULAR - KEVIN IS MY ROCK.

INTRODUCING GAVIN WAYNE

More Gavin Wayne

The Arrival

Thursday April 30, 2009 at 5:30am I felt that my water had broken but since I had a Dr. appt at 8:30 we decided to wait to see the Dr. to make sure. Well much to our suprise my water had not broken so we scheduled the induction date and went on our merry way, haha. We actually did a bunch of errands to get ready for Gavins arrival. We spent the rest of the evening at home spring cleaning and grilling. We were sittin on the back porch and Kevin said that my pants we wet, we both jumped up and yes they were wet but not alot so we had decided to watch it. We finished grilling, ate, went for a walk - I actually ran some, took a shower. Through all this I was having some irregular ctx's but they were getting stronger and more regular. After about 3hrs of ctx's and 1hr of hard, regular ctx's and bleeding we decided to make a trip to labor and delivery, with every anticipation of going home. Upon arrival to the hospital they placed me on some monitors and asked all the basic questions and did an Amnisure test (test to see it my water had ruptured). With fear in our eyes as we watched the test and 2 lines appeared, meaning my water had broke and the nurse confirmed it and that we were staying, we both broke down into tears. We are going to meet our little BOY soon :)

THE LABOR:
We arrived at the hospital at 11:04 pm, admitted around midnight and transfered to the floor and the process began. I got my IV and they started Pitocin around 2am to inncrease the strength of my ctx's and get a better pattern. The pain was awful I went from being able to talk with my ctx's to not being able to breathe in like 2 seconds, it happened fast. They offered me the epidural but being only 1cm I said no. After 30 min fo pain I convinced myself to get some pain meds, but decided to get the epidual instead, still on 1 cm, so I got it around 3 am. Approx. 2 hrs later I was 3-4 cm, then 8 cm (2 hrs later), then 9.5 approx. 1 hr later and started pushing around 11am. After only pushing for almost an hour we gave birth to out BEAUTIFUL BABY BOY at 11:49. Labor was hard but easier than I had expected and it was the most amazing feeling ever.

EMOTIONS:
How do you explain what if feels like to be a parent, you cant. There is not a book of anyone that can tell you what it is suppose to feel like, but it is by far the best and most AMAZING feeling I have ever felt and I am so glad that I have experienced this now in my life and so happy to have such an AMAZING husband and AMAZING son. Life is great, God is AMAZING.